Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. - Psalm 25:5

Monday, January 30, 2012

My Own Opinion

[I originally wanted to blog about how someone said I was always happy, always come in bouncing and my reply being its because I know Jesus. But.....this morning something else is weighing me down.]

But instead; I want to talk about what happens when someone talks about someone you know and like.

More specifically, it is Landen's old teacher at daycare. I have built my opinion of her based on what I hear from her mouth, what I see with my eyes and from how Landen reacts around her. I really like her. I think she is a nice person and great with the kids.

Last week, daycare told me that Landen would have a new teacher for his last week because his teacher quit. and I quote "she had to deal with some of her junk". Oh, ok. I immediately thought "I hope she is ok". Well it just so happened that I have her phone number so I asked. She said that she was fine but could not handle the things at work any more and has decided to watch kids in her own home until started college in the fall. She said that there was a little boy that is in Landen's class starting next Monday (today). I thought it was awesome and wished her good luck. I mentioned that when I stay home, maybe she can keep Landen 1 day a week so that he can play with other kids, and that I would be in touch. - Haven't talked to her since.

This morning when I dropped Landen off at daycare the office manager (not the owner, but while  I was told this as the owner was sitting right beside her) told me that and I quote "someone told me that you were thinking of dropping Landen off with her occasionally, and if I were you, I would not do that. We fired her because she is to "grunge" (whatever she meant by that!) and I would never send my kid with her." I asked why and she just repeated herself again. I said well ok, thanks for information.

I left thinking, what is going on!! My instincts about his teacher have been all good. I really like her. I had no intention of just dropping Landen off with her without scoping things out first anyways, because you can never be too sure.  I will always keep Landen first and never put him in harms way.

So after taking in all the information, I have decided to make my own opinion of her. I don't want anyone else making that choice for me. It isn't fair to his old teacher.

I was and still am a little taken a back by the office manager saying what she said to me. Even though she said it  to "warn me about the teacher", I feel as if I learn so much about her instead. She said it so casual, as if she was not worried about the teachers feelings (even is it is true, she is still a person and deserved respect). I have very mixed feelings about it. Ya know, when the office manager and owner are kinda "laughing about it after she said it"......strange!!!

I sure do not want any one judging me off of what someone else may have said. Especially when that soeone may have heard feelings towards me. So, I wont judge the teacher before I get to set my own opinion of her.

Ok, so I feel a little better now that I got that out!

Lesson learned! --------> BE NICE PEOPLE! Guard your words!!!!!!!!!!! :) Have a great day y'all!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Walking by Faith

Today is the day that I start walkingby faith. I have no idea that the future hold, but will continue to walk by faith, along side my Lord. Im excited for the adventure, but humanly nervous.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God". Philippeans 4:6.

"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." God is already in today/tomorrow, he is with me always, never forsaking me! I will remember this when I feel nervous or anxious, casting all my fear on Him. Deut 31.8

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)
Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)

I will walk, I will walk, I will walk by faith
I will, I will, I will walk by faith

*Walk by Faith  by Jeremy Camp*

Friday, January 20, 2012

My Leap of Faith

As I write this blog, my heart and hands tremble. I have been listening to the Lord speak to me for a few months about something. I have seen his signs and today is the day that I take the leap of faith he requires of me.

I am nervous and scared of the "what ifs". But I am trusting God. Trusting that this is his will and he will provide for my family. I know that God works for the good of all who believe, and I certainly believe.

I admit, sometimes I read ahead on my Jesus Calling book, I read this one on Tuesday because I wanted to see what the amazing Lord had to offer me on this high anxiety day. And once again, He proves to me that He is already ahead of me. He is in everything! That is is looking out for my heart, all I have to do is trust him! And if I didn't have enough clarification, I certainly do after reading this:
APPROACH THIS DAY WITH AWARENESS OF WHO IS BOSS. As you make plans for the day, remember that it is I who orchestrate the events of your life. On days when things go smoothly, according to your plans, you may be unaware of My sovereign Presence. On days when you plans are thwarted, be on the lookout for Me! I may be doing something important in your life, something quite different from what you expected. It is essential at such times to stay in communication with Me,m accepting My way as better than yours. Don't try to figure out what is happening. Simply trust Me and thank Me in advance for the good that will come out of it all. I know the plans I have for your, and they are good.
Ok!! When I read that I was immediately filled with hope and love for the Lord. I am still nervous and have thoughts of self doubt, but I am brought back to the what I know to be true:
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. - Psalm 28:7
Taking a leap of faith consist of getting out of your comfort zone. I know that I am safe where I am, I have been here for a long time. It is a terrific place to be, but in this season of my life my heart has choose to be elsewhere. My heart knows what the Lord has put on me to do. I give the Lord complete control. He has blessed Brandon and I will providing all the things we had on our to do list before we felt comfortable taking this leap. We have "all of our ducks in a row" and now it is in His hands!!

Dear God,
I come to you with a humble heart and acknowledge that you are my strength and salvation, that you are the purpose for which I live. Please be with me today as I make a huge commitment, Lord. Please help my surroundings accept it and be present in the people lives that it effects, give them peace. I do this for you and my family. I completely trust you; for I know your plans for me are good and you will not withhold anything good from those who do what is right. Thank you Lord for saving me and showing me the way. I am "living by faith, one day at a time" as I put in my 2 week resignation at work and become a homemaker and be with our son!   - In your powerful name I pray, Amen

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Count on Me

I love this song. When I hear it, I cannot help but to dance like a out of control person!!! :)


Hey
One day to get it all right
Two wrong and not enough right
Three words you said in the night
Before we held the fire
High five me brother it's amazing
Her six shooter came out blazing
7 up and coke on the pavement
Ate my heart out daily baby

Hey I love
Hey I need you
Hey I want you do you want me too

You can count on me
When you cannot see
Let me spell it out
Plain and simple now
When your numbers called
Backs against the wall
Pick you up when you fall
Be there when you call
Singing a b c
You can count on me
123
You can count on me
Amen we made it this far
B boys in VW cars
See me
Seeing into my heart
Delighted through the dark
Emails and coffee in the evening
Effort ya brother you'll believe it
Gee I don't know your secret
H.I. love you singing

Hey I love you
Hey I need you
Hey I want you do you want me too

You can count on me
When you cannot see
Let me spell it out
Plain and simple now
When your numbers called
Backs against the wall
Pick you up when you fall
Be there when you call

Singing
A B C
Add it up add it up now darling
1 2 3
Run Run when your calling
Hey, A B C
Ad it up add it up now darling
1 2 3

You can count on me
When you cannot see
Let me spell it out
Plain and simple now
When your numbers called
Backs against the wall
Pick you up when you fall
Be there when you call

Singing
A B C
You can count on me
Hey, 1 2 3
You can count on me
A B C
You can count on me
Hey, 1 2 3
You can count on me
A B C
Hey, 1 2 3
Here is the link for you to all enjoy the greatness!! (when your listening to it, try dancing like a craxy person! It makes it way better) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FANROVxej50

Thursday, January 5, 2012

The Lord is My Portion

On this day, my birthday, I want to share a small passage that changed the way I think/feel/believe.

Before I read this, I knew nothing about Jesus or God. After reading this passage, I understood that His love for me, even as the flawed person I am, is unbreakable. This passage lit the fire with in me and I knew that I wanted Jesus in my life. I keep this passage in my bible and I reread it quiet often.

The Lord is my constant companion.
There is no need that He cannot fulfill.
Whether His course for me points to the
mountain tops or the the valleys of human suffering,
He is by my side.
He is ever present with me.
He is close beside me
When I tread the dark streets of danger,
and even when I flirt with death itself,
He will not leave me.
When the pain is severe,
He is near to comfort.
When the burden is heavy
He is there to lean upon.
When depression darkens my soul,
He touches me with eternal joy.
When I feel empty and alone,
He fills the aching vacuum with His power.
My security is in His promise
to be near me always
and in the knowledge
that He will never let me go.


May God bless you all and
May He bless me with many more birthdays with my family.