This morning started as usual. Wake up, breakfast, coffee and our Tuesday routine grocery trip. Things were going fine. Nothing great, nothing terrible. Landen and I were doing....ok.
One thing that was not ok, was my attitude. My tone. Landen was acting like a normal 2 year old (well, his normal 2 year old self) and this morning, I was letting it get the better of me. My words were stinging my ears, so I knew they were stinging his.
I didn't like it, so I knew he didn't like it. And I could guarantee that God didn't like my sour attitude.
Things progressively got worse, as I talked to my husband on the phone, my words and tone stung him. We hung up the phone and I single handley made his attitude turn from good to bad.
I was a mad little bee, just stinging everyone who got in my way.
**sting sting sting, buzz buzz buzz**
Over nothing. There wasn't anything that happened. I was acting like my son! Being a 2 year old.
Landen and I were on our way to the splash pad to hang out with our friends, and I had a talk with God.
I repented for my attitude. I thanked him for his new compassion everyday, because He sure knows I need it! I asked him to forgive me for stinging everyone I loved dearly and to walk with me the rest of the day. Be by my side and take this anger that I was showing away from me.
My pride was shocked at what I heard from him!! Shocked!
He told me to apologize!
He said that he would walk with me, he would always be with me, but I needed to sincerely apologize out loud, to the people I had been rude too. And of course I had to do what he said. I cant tell him no!
He told me that I was acting like his little 2 year old and I need to apologize. (That is what I make Landen do! The lessons that come back to get me!! "Aww, man. For reals? Well played, God, well played!")
I think that God put that red light in my path, at that particular time just so that I could turn around and apologize to my sweet little 2 year old. Landen has great compassion, and said that he forgave me and we vowed to have a great day together with God beside us!
I called my husband and apologized. He forgave me. After I did that, it was like God said, "Thank you child. Now have a better day with me beside me." and Landen and I have been GREAT!
I set my pride aside and did what I was told to do.
*Blessings follows obeidience*
Next time I will try and not let it come to that point. I will ask for God to come along side me BEFORE I start stinging people.
Thank heavens God forgives us!!!!!!
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him. - Lamentations 3:22-24
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