Provers 31 Woman

The Proverbs 31 woman: this gave me a whole new outlook on what it means to me a wife and mother.

 ¹⁰A wife of noble character who can find?
   She is worth far more than rubies.
¹¹ Her husband has full confidence in her
   and lacks nothing of value.
¹² She brings him good, not harm,
   all the days of her life.
¹³ She selects wool and flax
   and works with eager hands.
¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships,
   bringing her food from afar.
¹⁵ She gets up while it is still night;
   she provides food for her family
   and portions for her female servants.
¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
   out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously;
   her arms are strong for her tasks.
¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable,
   and her lamp does not go out at night.
¹⁹ In her hand she holds the distaff
   and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
²⁰ She opens her arms to the poor
   and extends her hands to the needy.
²¹ When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
   for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
²² She makes coverings for her bed;
   she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
²³ Her husband is respected at the city gate,
   where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them,
   and supplies the merchants with sashes.
²⁵ She is clothed with strength and dignity;
   she can laugh at the days to come.
²⁶ She speaks with wisdom,
   and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household
   and does not eat the bread of idleness.
²⁸ Her children arise and call her blessed;
   her husband also, and he praises her:
²⁹ “Many women do noble things,
   but you surpass them all.”
³⁰ Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
   but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
³¹ Honor her for all that her hands have done,
   and let her works bring her praise at the city gate

Prayers Please

I have not blogged in a while because I am trying to write out my testimony for Feminar! Mrs. Janet has asked me if I would video tape my testimony to be played at Feminar! That is SO amazing but SO scary! To think that there may be someone in the audience who doesn't know the Lord (me last year) and my testimony could change it for them....WOW!!!

Granted, having it video taped is way better than me being up there trying to talk to 1,000 people!!  I am nervous about putting how I feel about the Lord into words so that everyone else can understand it, what a challenge it has become!

I rewrite it everyday! I only have about 15 more days until we record it and I could use your prayers.

Please pray that the Lord continues to talk to me and speak through me. I want to make it about HIM, He is the one who saved me! And if you don't mind, please pray for my nerves to calm down!! :)

Thank you in advanced awesome friends!

Open me Lord.

Would You open up eyes, so I can see
Would You open up my ears, so I can hear
Would You open up my mind, so I can know
Would You open up my heart, so I could love You more

I want to serve You, my God
I want to give All of Me,
I want to serve You, my King, yeah
I want to serve You, my Lord
I want to give You everything, yeah

Would You open up eyes, so I can see
Would You open up my ears, so I can hear
Would You open up my mind, so I can know
Would You open up my heart, so I could love You more

I want to serve You, my God
I want to give You everything
I want to serve You, my King, yeah
I want to serve You, my LOrd
I want to give You everything, Yeah

Here I am with my arms open wide
Asking for You to come up, up inside
Won't You make me new, won't You make me true?
Jesus, won't You make me like You?

Would You touch my eyes, so I can see
Would You touch my ears, so I can hear
Would You touch my mind, so I can know
Would You touch my heart, so I could love You more

Won't You open me
Won't You open me, open me
Won't You open me, open me
Won't You open me

I love this song, it totally inspires me! (Open Me, Shawn McDonald)

Fighting Back!

I am trying to make a decision that will affect our family greatly. I know what I want to do, I know what God wants me to do but to actually do it and not be terrified is really hard. (For those of you who don't know what my choice is, you will soon enough. The time is not right to tell it. Just bare with me in this blog and think of it as a general "FIGHT THE DEVIL BLOG"!!! lol)

Brandon and I have been thinking about it for about 3 weeks now. Making sure we have our ducks in a row, being prepared for it, its what we do!  The closer we get to the time when we will have to make a "yes or no", the more anxious I get. This is a perfect example of how the devil will try to sabatoge your dreams.

I KNOW that we will be ok, I KNOW that God will provide. I KNOW that it will be hard. I also know that with the strength and courage from God, we will not only make this choice the best ever, God will bless us for it.

When you have a dream about to come true, the devil will step in and make you doubt yourself. That is exactly what he is doing to me right now!!! Starting yesterday, that mean ol' devil has been after me!  He has told me that "this choice will break my marriage, it will destroy our lives, we wont live happily, I am not strong enough, I am not cut out for this, I will ruin the rest of my life".  Typically that is good reason to run the other way....oh not for me...not for any child of God's! I will fight that devil!

I really hate hearing and feeling these things so I pray and I hard pray for God to reveal the truth to me. My only defense against the devil is God and His TRUTH; it is what I know to be TRUE! His word! He loves me and will bless me for living for Him. He will not give me anything that I cannot handle. I think that sometimes God will put a though into your mind and it is his secret way of telling you what you should do. Its like a test, do you muster the courage and strength through him and DO IT or let the devil win?!?

I want this so badly, I WILL WIN!!!! 

On the way to work, I was frustrated with that dang devil. Always in my ear, in my head and it was messing with every part of me! Turning my blessings turn into burdens <~~ That is just totally FALSE!!

I wanted to hear a song that would speak to me, so I searched Pandora on my phone and was getting upset/mad because they were all...well blah. I finally turned to my trusty channel, Nicol Sponberg, and BAM! Like lightening to my soul, I heard, Yet I will Praise. (I searched for lyrics to show you all, but couldn't find them.) It told me that even when I cant see, even when I am in darkness, I will trust and praise Him. He died for us and I can have His strength. 

It was like God was hugging my heart and telling me that I would be A-OK!

I am all better now, and I am back on the TGT, aka "Trust God Train". ha ha ha I just made that up and I LOVE IT!!  Who is with me?!?! Get on the TGT!!! 

I hope you have a great weekend friends!!

And remember, "When that pesky devil tells you that your dreams cannot come true or your blessings are burdens, you can gather your arsenal on the TGT"

(Reading this after I have finished makes me cry...I think it is very powerful and it encourages me to keep going, I hope it does for you too!)