Mother's Day Rose

I got this rose for Mother's Day from Landen. I let it ride on the dash board in my car for a few days so I could be reminded of something beautiful during a dark time in our lives. As I drove and I saw it wilting in the sun, I decided to dry it out in my bible (which was in the seat beside me during our trips back and forth to the hospital) so I could keep the rose forever. I opened up a page and put it in there. I haven't looked at that rose since or even the page it marked, until this morning when I desperstly needed a word from God.

And you know God, giving us just what we need when we need it!

This mothers day was very hard for us because we lost a mom. I have felt lost and self reliant. Broken hearted for my husband and family. Trying to do it all my self. Feeling and actually having so much to do that I haven't had time to sit and be still with the Lord like I want and need to. But yet trying to compensate for that. I've been trying to do it 'my' way and not the Lords way. 

So this morning as I read Jesus Calling I was curious about the lump in my bible. I turned the page and found the special rose. My heart was softened. I read the verses that were on the page it marked and a certain one stood out to me.   

Psalm 147:10-11

His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of the warrior;  the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.

All of this I know. But I had forgotten because my mind was focused on the wrong things. Sadly to admit, I was failing my God. 

God doesn't want me to be a worrier or things and whats next for our family. Or count on my own strength. These things do not please him. For what pleases my God is fearing HIM and putting my hope in HIS UNFAILING love! 

I love my God. With all that I have. I rejoice in him for he has saved me. He has great plans for me and my whole family. My faith is strong.  He will NEVER leave me. He is the one thing that will always remain. 

Here is the psalm that the rose marked. Psalm 147 It really spoke to me, all of it!

 *Verse 3 marked the top of my page.* 

Psalm 147:3-14 NIV

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.  He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name.  Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit.  The Lord sustains the humble but casts the wicked to the ground.  Sing to the Lord with grateful praise; make music to our God on the harp.  He covers the sky with clouds; he supplies the earth with rain and makes grass grow on the hills.  He provides food for the cattle and for the young ravens when they call.  His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of the warrior;  the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.  Extol the Lord , Jerusalem; praise your God, Zion.  He strengthens the bars of your gates and blesses your people within you.  He grants peace to your borders and satisfies you with the finest of wheat.

This will always hold a special place for me.  

(I was going to just put a short fb status about this, but once I get started it is hard to stop!)